Here is my final plan:

1. Graduate and get my Diploma
2. Get a job when I turn 18 to start saving up for Car and room to rent
3. Go to Driving School
4. Get my Provisionals
5. Get a new car (preferably a 2012 Scion TC because I like sporty but if you have any other suggestions for new cars that cost under 25,000 total I’d be glad to hear) with a $8,000 down payment or more to reduce monthly payments (The reason I am getting a new car is because I don’t have any credit right now, and I need credit to get a good Apartment)
6. Get a second job as a delivery man
7. Get a room to rent to start up on climbing ladder to apartment.
8. (a total of 3 years pass)
9. Have New car paid off and credit established for the most part.
10. Go into Trade school for Pastry Chef, Automotive Mechanic, And Construction
11. Get job as either of the 3
12. Get a nice Apartment and furnished it and fill it with homely items and high quality ingredients

Keep in mind that up until I move out of my parents house, I will be cleaning and maintaining that too for I have both an obligation and a responsibility to.

That is my Graduation plans. Hope to hear some replies, comments, suggestions!!!

Well folks, I am heading up to my June 2012 graduation date with varied apprehension. But my plans when I graduate vary much differently then those of my compadres. At first I planned to go to trade school for Culinary, Automotive, and Construction. But then I realized that moving out was higher on my priority list. But to move out, you need finances, and to need finances, you need a job. But I was still going about applying for a job and doing the interviews the wrong way. So then I took a break, so I can really figure out my present, and post desires, along with my past mistakes. I wanted to get a job in the current, drive, and bake for my friends. In the future, I wanted to have a comfort based apartment that my friends and family could rest relax, and even stay over if necessary, with always the air of good food and friendliness. Also in the future, i wanted a good fully paid off car, an then trade school. So I constructed this plan, still subject to change. More to come in the next part.

As I sit here doing my homework,

A rare occurrence in one such as I,

I ponder about certain things.

About our existence,

about our future,

about our past.

It ties in,

because I have been absent from school,

a number of days,

with sick as my general excuse,

but really something physiological as a refuse.

Many things have broken my mind,

such as moving away,

and leaving the life I know,

for one I pursue.

Now one may ask,

you have wanted to do just that thing,

why do you conflict about it now?

Maybe I don’t want to move,

maybe just becoming a bum,

just giving up is easy enough,

says my mind.

And so I have hit an impasse,

for 3 days I have been sorrowful,

for 3 days I have conflicted.

The conclusion I have come to though,

is not one can describe easily.,

but I will try my best,

to describe that,

that is what is grinding myself,

to a stop.

I force myself to move,

because if I don’t move,

who will make me?

If I don’t set up responsibilities,

who will?

If I don’t make myself un-lazy,

who will when it gets to be too late,

too little?

This current state I live in,

has comforts I loath to relinquish,

deep inside myself they say.

This current state I live in,

has limits I would not like to surpass,

deep inside myself they say.

But I must move past these limits,

if I am to move on,

to both a new step,

and a better life.

My outer self wants to move,

my inner doesn’t want to budge,

my outer wants to see the goals I set for myself accomplished,

my inner just wants to live as is until drastic change says otherwise.

So in effect,

my outer must become my inner,

and my inner must be changed,

so I do not become a bum,

do not become,

“that teen who just let everything slide”.

It is going to be hard,

especially since,

by nature,

I am a loner.

By fate,

I am not meant for anything serious yet,

even though i try to convince myself otherwise.

But if I can remain strong,

in my resolve to change myself,

maybe I can get past this,

with little or no tears.

To those who are also same or similar,

I say to do the same,

believe that those who support you,

want you to forge ahead in life.

for those who are loners,

believe that yourself,

you,

are the only one who knows yourself better than others,

and that true self,

always wants the best for yourself.

It might take me a while to get back up my usuals,

but I will start to,

“For without myself, i am nothing, for without my soul, i am a husk, for without a fire, i am cold and regressive”

When you look at the weather, you are either looking at your inner emotions,

or your outer ones you portray.

I woke up to a sunny day and a healthy body.

It is strange considering that those two never co-exist with each other often.

The sunny day reminds me of happy memories when i was younger,

And my healthy body means i care about myself enough to start doing things

without a feeling of self dread.

Usually, the sunny day will be there but the health will not

happy memories, but no self esteem

when the health does come along its mister johnny come lately

i have self esteem but not the memories to guide me.

the more days i have of these,

the more i will be able to learn to shine.

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